Semiaxiosexual, or ‘half attraction’, is a sexuality in which the person feels different attractions to different genders.
E.g. Someone may feel sexually attracted to females and romantically attracted to males. This can also apply to other genders such as non-binary, gender fluid and other genders. You can also feel fully attracted to a gender and half attracted to another. This can apply for more than 2 genders.
This may resonate with you because you are torn between who you feel attracted to and maybe can imagine different attractions to different people.
The origin of this sexuality’s name comes from the prefix 'semi-' and a shortened version of the word ‘axiotheato’, meaning attraction in Greek.